I, like many other people in the world made New Year's resolutions. I've hardly shared them with anyone, perhaps because they are a bit more personal than "getting in shape."
Are you ready for this...?
Love
Joy
Solitude
I'm only going to focus on one for tonight. Let's talk about joy.
This semester is going to be the most stressful one of my college career. I'm taking five classes, all in the upper 300's while balancing a job, applying for internships, working out, and attempting to be a good friend and daughter. I can do anything for four months, right?
You see that's the thing though, I don't want to keep looking forward to the summer. I want to be in the now. I want to have joy in every little situation so I don't get stuck in the future. Every day I want to wake up and be excited for everything the day will bring, even if it is a lot of school work.
I look back on all the amazing adventures I have had so far in my life and I sometimes I kick myself and say 'Man I sure didn't appreciate that enough, why did I get worked up about such a silly thing, why didn't I just let go of everything and have fun?'
I often think those things because in my mind if I would have appreciated them more, it would have made time go by slower. I think ultimately it's just me missing the past.
I still could have had more joy in those moments though. There's nothing I can do about it now but learn from it. So this night, tomorrow, this semester, and (hopefully it becomes a habit) the rest of my life, I chose joy.
Things will happen outside of my control, I will feel stressed out but I will enjoy my day because I will never get another one like it.
